ABOUT ME

I think the world hates me

But only few of them actually do including me

The membrane to hate around me forces me to hear and breathe the same

Pain addictions and me are the ones to blame

I don’t see love anymore anywhere

It might be presentPublish Post

Something inside me compels me to be aware

Human nature is on decline inside me

And this what you see is only a programmed interface that I wear

I wanna live

And I want this ‘I’ to be me

ONLY ME

searching

This morning full of mist
Leaves me confused
To enjoy it, or to be sad
Or to dance to the natures tune
still in my heart lonely as a dune

Searching places again and again
For the final point
Where all hardships end
Where in my final form I descend
Change my form to sand
Amongst all to make my stand

Or just to unite every grain
Maybe mist is a good omen
Start of a good day
But I need to find a place
Just warm enough
Where forever I’ll stay

transforming state

Trapped between past and the present

To choose between the life now or life to be- a difficult task

To live

Or to be in the present mask

Transforming into a better being

Stings of the past still pains

To complete the things remaining

Or to be in the past

About which myself I still blame

Fading of the memories

Of love and dirty hate

But since addicted to pain

Paralyzed by the state

Paralyzed by the state I’m

Some one help me to wash the stain

To stop the voice

Repeatedly calling me insane

first day

First day
The painted rooms, I hate the way
Pinching bright light
Less to see
Empty buildings in sight
Waiting for the teacher
And void elevator rooms
Screech of the crusher and its booms
Unknown echoing sounds
Broken or being made homes are the ones that surrounds
I hate this way
Daily to travel long
I hate the place where I stay

To look down the top floor
Still no reason to jump
Not liking the way it is
I regret the way blood pumps

crushed by the pressure

I’m the clutch
I hate the way my life is
I hate the way it sucks
The way I thought to be something
the way I fail
The way I say this
The way I sail
Filled with happiness my heart
I hate the way it bluffs
Now I hate myself
Because I hate to love

Dying to live my life
To recover
Possibilities left to discover
But it seems impossible to clear the way
To clear the memories that still stay

FULL ][ THROTTLE

Feeling blood rush in my veins
Touching vibrations of the engine blasts
Breaking chains of the fucking pains
Kicking deaths ass every time, I regain
Faster than sound, now nothing I hear
I’m right in town and I have hit the fastest gear

I don’t care what others think
To see what they say isn’t my job
More they are scared
better I feel
the Better I feel
to see ooo0H When my glimpse they steal

Covered with cars and futile brains
Roads drowning in human rains
I fly or I ride many are confused
Touching top speed many feel is bloody great
And the ones left think that still being on my bike is just my fate

As I discover wind in my hair
I realize the adrenalin flow
Now I feel like a dark rider
And I hate all the losers who are slow
When I stop
like dead I feel, yet immortal
So I start again with a wheelie
And I start again with FULL THROTTLE

Safar me muskeelen aayen to zurrat aur badhati hai

Safar me muskeelen aayen to zurrat aur badhati hai,

Koi jab rasta roke to himmat aur badhti hai !



Meri kamjoriyon par jab koi tankeed karta hai,

O dusman kyon na ho usse muhabbat aur badhti hai !



Zaroorat me azizon ke agar kuchh kaam aajao,

Rakam bhi doob jati hai sood aur badhati hai !



Tera masoom as chehra chhupalun aankh me kaatil,

Nazar mujhko na tu aaye to dhadkan aur badhti hai !



Agar bikane pe a jao to ghat jate hain daam aksar,

Na bikane ka irada ho to keemat aur badhti hai !

~~~MAYANK][COMPANY~~~

Phoolon ka khel hai kabhi patthar ka khel hai

Phoolon ka khel hai kabhi patthar ka khel hai,
Insan ki zindagi to mukaddar ka khel hai !

Bahla ke apane pass bulakar fareb se,
Nadiyon ko lootana to samandar ka khel hai !

Ham jisko dhoondhte hai zamane me umra bhar,
O zindagi to apane hi andar ka khel hai !

Har lamha haosalon ke mukabil hain hadse,
Dono ke darmiyan barabar ka khel hai !

Kahte hain log jisko dhanak aur kuchh nahi,
Askon se lipati dhoop ki chadar ka khel hai !

Duniya pukarti hai jise ghar ke naam se,
Sach puchhiye to neewan ke patthar ka khel hai !

~~~MAYANK][COMPANY~~~

Ham apane man ko bahut pahle mar aaye hain

Bina khilaono ke bachpan gujar aaye hain,
Ham apane man ko bahut pahle mar aaye hain !

Hamre pass sukh aaye hain magar aksar,
Hawa ke jhonke par hoke sawar aaye hain !

Gaye the jetane jo kal bade bade sapne,
O chhoti chhoti si khusiyan bhi haar aye hain !

Ab aur dhoondhe kahan jaake zindagani ko,
Ham usko dono jahan me pukaar aaye hain !

Gaye the bhul se eek bar ham dukhon ki taraf,
Feer uske baad o khud baar baar aaye hain !

Teri rahon ke sabhi khar uthata har pal,
Kya karen sans hi do char le ke aaye hain !!

~~~MAYANK][COMPANY~~~

Kya batayen kya badha duniya me kya kam ho gaya

Kya batayen kya badha duniya me kya kam ho gaya,
Khaofe-insaa badh gaya khaofe-khuda kam ho gaya !

Sochnewale to pahle bhi bahut kam the magar,
Sochne walon ka bhi ab sochna kam ho gaya !

Ab to har pal zindagi ke sar pe mandarati hai maut,
Maut se ab zindagi ka fasla kam ho gaya !

Pahle tha sara jahan ghar ,ab hai bas ghar tak jahan,
Rafta rafta sabke dil ka dayara kam ho gaya !

Din ba din badhta gaya saitan har insan me,
Din ba din har aadmi me devta kam ho gaya !

Ishk ke charche to hote hain yahan ab bhi magar,
Ishk ke charchon me ab zikre-wafa kam ho gaya !

Zindagi ki zustaju to ab bhi jari hai magar,
Badh gayee hai naummeedi hausala kam ho gaya !!

~~~MAYANK][COMPANY~~~

romancing with blade

They accused me of killing someone
But it’s my thoughts which were killed
I was suffocated till the core
And pain galore

Criminated for evil doings
Which I have never done
Pressure inside rising and forced to tear the heart apart
They killed my innocent life
But they left my innocent eyes
Still they cry
They show enormous pain
When emotionless my face remains

I ease the pressure inside
Romancing with a blade
It help me regains the process
Vital to die
And it relieves my pain

What more pain can it give me?
Than already I’m in
I don’t know I will die romancing
Or I’m already dead

cavity inside me 2

hi
this one is i thinka better version of my previous post "cavity inside me" which my readers think is not up to the mark as it lacks flow.
thanks to all who helped me improve
here it goes

A cavity inside me developing
Getting thrust
By the pools of pain and disgust
Trying to wash it away with even more pain
As I think it’s not futile to get wet in the paining rains

I’m alone
I need someone
I need someone to drain my thoughts
One who is neutral and plain
To consume excess blue blood and memories that still remain

Aaaaah
As I see lightning
My blood begins to boil it begins to flow
It gives me force to face the viscous air and my skin light to glow
I feel my anger controls it and although it’s beautiful you see
It destroys anything I hate and hate around me

Sun kills my thoughts and dries my skin as skies begin to clear
Color which reminds me of blue blood comes and black beauty disappears
I hate it
And I hate me
As I have lost my friend again
The rain

cavity inside me

A cavity inside me growing
with the thrust of pain and disgust
trying to wash it away with raining pains
As I spend time with my friend
Painful rains

I need someone right now
come share my pains
cry when I do
To cover the blue blood and the leftovers that remains

Lightning
lights in the dark sky
It heats my blood to boil
Passes it the energy to flow
Power to face the viscous air
and they give my skin light to glow
I control the lightning
And although it is beautiful you see
Using them I destroy anything I hate
and the hate around me

Time stops for no one
So skies begin to clear
Blue blood appears, and the black beauty diminishes
I feel like crying
Just to call you, my friend again
The rain

painful addiction

Love, I’m addicted to it
Still getting none
I crave for it and love everyone to get the same back
But suffering is what I get in return

Strange thing it is to get addicted to pain
But that’s what I’m comprised of
It outlines my life, limits it
Flowing in my veins

My life this thing drives
Being addicted to smokes
Is what makes me survives
It’s the only thing which loves and relieves my pain
Turning into ashes
And never complains

Maybe also addicted to her eyes
They give me pain
Sufferings
Feeling of guilt
And a reason to survive

in love.......................again!!!!

“Still waiting for you”
I used to say
Even when I never meant it
To make you realize I still stay

I wanted you to feel what I felt
the Guilt of atrocious crime
the Fear of unknown
the Pain I used to feel
And others, to you still not known

Suffocated I was
And wanted you to be killed by same
I wanted you to crave for fresh air whose sign on my nature still remain

My life was filled with smokes and alcohol
Quantities I never cared about
They helped me or the feelings against me ?
Is the question still in doubt

Now that I’m in love again
What to stay to her question still remains
This time my feelings not loosely held
Because of the suffocation I felt

Afraid of the past and now of future
Somebody please help
I don’t want to loose my life evolved from crap
And now I think back on the track

addictive killing smokes

Standing by your friend
And sharing is taught
I took it otherwise and shared the smoke

Small white sleek stick
Cannot be of much harm
Can it disturb my life?
So calm
Whatever it may be no one is to blame
Its my own life and its responsibility I claim
So just for the sheer taste

I took it in haste

The experience was the worst of all kind
I choked... and explained it as first time
That was the death's trick of showing the way
And I was following my friend right away

To show him I’m not weak
I puffed once more
Trying to feel, the feel all adore

(after a month)

Still addiction no where to be seen
I started to smoke on whatever day that had been
Tension was the excuse sometimes
othertimes that was any that rhymes

(a month to die )

Smoke's slave soon I became
Although I knew it
I smoked once more to push the fucking thoughts away

Smoke preferred over smoke is an idea insane
But now to live without it is to die
So let it remain

infinite!

Struggle to live
Struggle for life
Toil for money

Strangled in the infinite threads of struggle
Bear the pain for more
Life isn’t the way
Death is not either, they say

Exhausted by the struggle to survive
Monstrous pain makes it bitter
No better than the hell, my life
Then also to live, I choose
Because to die for only this is a lame excuse

It would be the same after death
But the game would be lost
And losing isn’t my style
I’m a Libran after all!

i cannot share the pain

Killing him was not so fine!
as He was a good frnd of mine
but I could not see him suffer
and killing him made me a bit tougher

I don’t like to share pain
And that’s how "killings" I explain
Many more I have to kill
Therefore living still
as Many are more still alive
who are Living a miserable life

One more reason on which killing is based
Is the blood’s taste
for it a life is worth to waste
They call me a killer But I cannot see the pain
After I cut his hand to taste the refreshing bloody rain
Therefore I killed him

Can you now feel the pain in your head?
By the time I will die you too will be dead
as your life too is in pain
Since you are my frnd I am killing you without any gain

without a helmet

aaj gaya tha ghumne
nahi gaya tha kisi ko chumne
kyon muzhe pakar liya
apne gande haton mein jakar liya
nahi irada tha ek
na hi the ve nek
gari ki nikal li chabi
jaise bhaga raha hun uski bhabhi
chala raha tha gari
lene ja raha tha sari
samay tha kafi
magar mangni pari mafi
light thi red
mein ho gaya slow dead
yeh police kya chez hai
jaise gandi kamiz hai
laya paper kar diya chalan
sala tha haivan
bike mein nahi thi jagah
paper nahi the is vajah
rakh li chabi
pata nahi kime hain uske bhabhi
paisa mang raha tha bahut
sarashakal se lag raha tha aawara
yeh nahi tha muzhe ko gawanra
meine kari request
kaha uncle tha mera test
aaj ki hai date
ho gaya hun mein late
usne dikhai ankhen
dikh gayein salakhien
paisa le gaya tha sala thag
phir muzhe se kaha ab tu bhaga
a gaya mein ghar
man mar kar

jal

pehle man jala

phir jivan jala

ant mein hai tan jala

jab jaljala

tab sab jala

kya jal kya nirjala

tuzhe sang dekh kar log jale

agni mein hai bhog jale

tera jivan strrot jale

u will die with me!

dard ki rah mein
dard ki chah mein
dard se mein marta hun
tuzhe se ishq mein karta hun

maut ki raah mein
maut ki chah mein
markar bhi na mar saka
chah kar bhi na barh saka

jab hum sath the
hathon mein hath the
alag khayalat the
tab mra tha tum par
ab daya karta hun
kya halat hai marne ki bat karta hun

shayad naa hi hi hum se accha
aur naa hi muzh se saccha
tuzhe koi mille
kabhi to bayan karti koi agar hain shikwe-gille

kahan tha kahan se aaya
koi aur sathi na meine paya
mera saya muzhe se bhaga
itni raton ko mein tanha jaga

shayad yehi khushi hai teri
muzhe maut mille meri
phir ab tuzhe kis bat ka gam
bahut pehle hi mar gaye the hum

ab to sath mil payenge tere marne par
aur mere kuch karne par
marna to tuzhe mere haton parega
par meri tarah nahi tera shav sarega
kyonki us mein kire nahi lagenge
teri khun ki bewafai se darenge

i love to see u cry and then die

kwahishon ki kami ha thi
man mein sami na thi
samay bhi kam na tha
aur na hi mera mann na tha

tor diya sab tumne
jine ka rukh mor diya tumne
chahat koi bachi na hai ab
hasein to hasein sab

dekha tumhein to laga sapna
jo hai sirf apna
na so paye
na ro paye
aankhon mein the tum jab jage
jayein to jayein kahan kahan bhagein
dikhai bhi nahi deta ab to aage

maut ke pas khara
apne jine ke liye lara
aakhir tumne mere liye kya hai kara
pata nahi parega tumhein mein jiya ya mara

ab bhi kwahish hai teri
shayad yehi wafa hai meri
teri jagah na aur koi ayegaye
man tuzhe na kabhi bhula payega

yeh dard kabhi to tuzhe bhi parega sehna
nahi tha mein jo utar diya tune ek gehna
ghamand ko to hai ek din dehna

koi na hoga tere pas
jab hogi tuzhe kisi ki aas
jine ki hogi tuzhe pyas
par ji na payegi
teri maut tuzhe bahut rulayegi
us din chahe khun ke ghut piyunga
par mein jiyunga

doorie sahi jaye na

(this poem is not mine but i found it 2 sexy to keep it out)

Meri Ankhoon Sai Kabhi Utroo Dil Main,
Kai Main Dhadkan Main Basa Lon Tum Ko,
Jaan Sai Barh Kar Chahon Tumhain,
Apni Zindagi Hi Banna Loon Tum Ko,
Maray Khabon Main Sirf Tum Hi Baso,
Apni Neendon Main Saja Loon Tum Ko,
Loogon Ki Bhir Main Kho Na Jao Kahin,
Zamanay Sai Chalo Main Chura Lon Tum Ko,
Meri Tanhai Ko Zaroorat Hai Tumhari,
Gar Ijazat Ho Tu Yadon Main Bula Lon Tum Ko

i think i really wanna die but why?

beh raha hai lahu

ye dard mein kaise sahun

kuch karne ka man karat hai

aaj marne ka man karta hai

sab hai yahan

rote hansete gate

aate jate

yehi to hai locha

kyon hain wo hain yahan kya kisi ne socha?

yeh duniya hai choti

par hai bahut khoti

soch ke "kya khona kya pana"

faltu mein khilkihlana

muzhe hai kuch pana

jita nahi hun sirf khane ke liye khana

par yeh uska julm hai ke ab muzhe hai jana

agar yeh hai pana to khona kya hai

yeh soch kar rona kya hai

pyar mein dhoka

zindagi hai khali khoka

aap batao ab kya karun

ab jiyun ya marun

kisi aur se ya apne aap se hi jarun

raton ko sota nahi

darta hun par khota nahi

kabhi kisi ke samne rota nahi

kyon mein sota nahi

yeh bozh muzhe se saha nahi jata

ji to raha hun par raha nahi jata

khun to har mein hai behta

kitne nason ke bhandan hai wo sehta

kyon na kabhi aaye wo sath mein thora wakt bitayen

aur phir is duniya se jayen

pata nahi kyun the aaye

aur pata nahi kyun jaye

pata nahi pata kya hai

kyun jaye tumhare liye hum hamari khata kya hai?

mila tha tumse kabhi

kehten hain sabhi

mere sapnon mein to roz aati ho tum

ab to herdum sona hai

tumhein kya pana kya khona hai

kabhi to aaogi wahan par tum bhi

pyar karne walon ka wahi ek thikana hai

WHAT IS THIS GOD?

god ne parai kyon banai
zaroor apni biwi so ho gayi hogi larai
ek aadh chemical kam banata to uska kya jata?
chemistry kuch to samazh mein aata

jitne bana sakta tha bana diye usne
ab to dimag mein bhi laga hai ghusne

uske liye sone par suhaga
muzhe hi rehna tha abhaga
ek chemical rxn hazar
jaise laga ho machli bazar

khud to baithe rehtein hain aale mein
thund nahi lagti hai pale mein
bhagwan chemistry yon banai
humein roz ladni parti hai larai

roz subha bhog hai lagta
phir bhagwan kyon nahi hai hagta
khate ho to agna to cheiye
chemistry banayi hai to parna to chaiye

gita mein hai sab kuch
kya sach muuch?
bazar meinaati hai with naye luk
us se moti hai hamare course ki book

krishan ko sab kuch hai aata
to chemistry parne kyon nahi jata
lagta to nahi wo bhi hai usko aata

waise chemistry kaun se bhagwan ne hai banayi?
yeh baat mere samazh mein nahi aayi
aur vedon mein bhi nahi batayi

ab aayi hai string theory
kya ye wahi string hai jis se bani bori hai?
bye ab chalta hun
ja kar sir par fatty acid malta hun!

i wanna fight

i wanna fight
kill all enemies still in sight
halat abhi hai tight
kyonki raat ko chali gayi thi light

kal raat socha tha mar jaoon
ab is jivan se barh jaoon
magar girte hain sehsavar hi maidane jung mein
kya maza hai nobel prize ka lena kisi ke sang mein

ab mein jeeunga
shayad khun ke gooth piunga
tap ke banta hai sona khara
kya farak parega agar kisi ko agar mein mara

raat ko soya nahi
aieee ki parai kar raha tha
apni language mein para para sar raha tha
ab mein orkutting chorunga
tabhi to aieee phorunga

raat ko khatam kiya ocygen 1
ab ho gaya hai ekdum done
lagta hai kaam jayega ban

inorganic imp nahi hai
bus yahi kam sahi hai
physics pehle se muzhe hai aata
maths mein kam hai ban jata

chemistry karunga strong
nahi karunga wrong
shayad ab nahi likh paunga
magar 29th ke badh laut ke aunga
phir aur kahan jaunga?
apne doston ko yahi paunga
khaunga piunga so jaunga

i wanna die

(this is a bit serious 1 and i think it represents me rit now )

i wanna die
say to this world b bye
jivan ka har pal kehta hai
pata nahi ye khun kyon behta hai?
kab tak rahoonga ye sab kuch sehta

aaj jine ka man nahi hai karta
sab hi kyon mein kyon nahi marta
apne aap se kab tak rehoonga mein yun darta
aishta se kabhi maut aaye
gheri neend mein muzhe sulaae
marne ka entzar karta hun
shayaad apne aap se zada baki sab se darat hun

sab kehte hain tum ho gaye ho pagal
agar apne time se jagta aur sota hun
pata nahi mein kya khota hun?
meri har baat lagti hai sab ko buri ab
yeh kehtein hain sab

apas mein pyar nahi hai
aur dusron ki baat karte hain
roz muzhe chor kar pata nahi kitne log marte hain?
kabhi lagta ye pyar nahi dikhawa hai
kya zindagi ek behkava hai?
parai par aakar sab kuch kyon hai atakta?
es bari si duniyan mein mein hun bhatakta

apne raste chunna galat to nahi
ab tak lagta tha muzhe yehi

abkya pata mein kahan jaunga?
aur apni ghatiya zindgi mein kya paunga
jine ki eccha to nahi hai par jina parta hai
marne ke bad sharir sabka akarta hai
tab to apne hisab se sounga
aaj akela rota hun
kal sab ko rulaunga

kya iit hi hai ultimate aim?
pata nahi kaun khelraha hai ye game
sab kehte hain janvar hn mein jungle ka
ya vasi hun mangal ka

mein akela baith kar raha tha ro
aur party karne gaye the sab wo
iit nahi karne ka sbkuch hai asar
abhi nikal lo bachi hui kasar

thore din bad to mar jaunga
shayad jalunga ya sar jaunga

actually i wanna die
abd say to this fkin world b bye

my frnds part 1

ashish hai sabse jada para
tabhi to iit ki daur mein sabse aaga hai khara

kanchan ko solutions dekh kar laga jhatka
aur uska dimag satka
aieee par ja kar atka

mannu ke samne hai samsya vikat
kata nahi raha hai ghar ka ticket

shubhankar hai sala phoru sala
roz hai mannu ke sath orkut par aala
chemistry ne lagayi hai iske bhi wat
pata nahi kitno ki khara karegi khat

bakiyon ke bare mein bataunga kal
abhi kar ke aata hun mal

sleeples nits

neend nahi aati hai raton ko
boriyat ho gayi hai baton se baton ko
organic karni thi complete
kyon para rahein hain jab ho gayi hai abselete

bhor atom hai nahi
kyon oara rahe hain pata nahi
aieee ke liye parta hun
para sarta hun
sarna bhi ek kala hai
jaise angur ek bala hai
wine banta hai marte marte
mein pee ja ta hun darte darte

aieee ke liye ek afta hai
halat bahut khasta hai
ladki ka khayal dil mein basta hai

abhi dost ki gf se batein kar raha tha
socha meri bhi ho
muzhe hoga garv
jab naam legi parv

dekha aieee phir bhul gaya
phansi par phir jhul gaya
vaise zindagi bhi hai nark jaisi
kitabein parni parti hain kaise kaise
koi accha coll na mile
to dimag kehta hai thora aur bad mein je le
teen sal se yehi sunta aa raha huun
aur aise hi kavitayein ga raha hun

dimag ko lag gaya hai tala
aur orkut ka hai bolbala

totaly ilogicl

(idont know why i wrote this poem its totally illogical so dont search for logic in it just hav fun ok?)

sali aadhi gharwali
usko le gaya mali
samne tha saand
mehndi di gayi thi mand
sali ghabrayi
mali laya dudh malayi
nayi kamiz silyayi
free mein aaya halwayi
us se rabri banwayi
jo ki thi sali ne khayi

nasa ka naya yan
nahi milte usmein pakwan
kamle jana hota hai saman
congress ki youth kaman

pahuncha jab mars par
dikha alien ka sar
nahi paar paye magar
ghume dar dar

suna smoking sehat ke liye hai bura
par yahan to sundri ke sath hai sura
jaldi nikal lo chura
kyunki mein hun thora dara dara

i dont study
kehtein sab buddy
pani hai muddy

kar do muzhe bari
sari mein hai zari
fish pari hui hai mari
aadhi zamin mein gari
usko pani mein dalo
zara situation ko samhalo
horse ki si rakho chal
taki bad mein na ho malal

iit jee remains a dream

karna tha jee
par ar diya pee
brain mera satka
chemistry ne diya phatka
rimmer-tiemman gaya bhul
ho gaya sab dhul -dhul

physics ne diya sath
vahi purana helping hath
maths bhi nikal gaya
chemistry mein phisal gaya

sala cbse based paper diya
planning ka kura kiya
crystal dil tha ho gaya chur
sab lagne lage humein ghur
pehle aasha thi ab nirasha hai
aur na hi sath mein vipasha hai

physica mein sau
maths mein sattar
aur chemistry mein halat bad se badttar

aieee par atkunga
pata nahi kaun se payedan par ja kar latkunga
halat hai kathor
par ye dil mange more more more ...........

do u believe in marrige?

आज दिल में है आशा
या है निराशा?
असल में आशा ही निराशा है....

लडकी का नाम आशा है
और उसकी वजह से निराशा है!
जाने दो यारों क्या आशा क्या निराशा जब साथ में नो विपाशा

करो उसको kiss
और मेघा को करो मिस
मिस से करो मिसेज़
और उस से बनवाओ दिशेस

अब विधवा ना हो जाये वो
इससे पहले कर लो जो
अखिर करते हैं सब
साथ देगा तुम्हारा रब

बरिया सा एक रबड़ लाओ
शादी से नाम मिटाओ

कहते हैं कौन देगा बुरापे में साथ
जब कोई ना हो साथ तब अपना हाथ जगन्नाथ
मरते मरते सोचेंगे
क्या हमने जिया क्या तुमने जिया
सालों शादी करके भी dew ही पिया?
end mein
shadi hai barbadi
aur isse barti hai aabadi