crushed by the pressure

I’m the clutch
I hate the way my life is
I hate the way it sucks
The way I thought to be something
the way I fail
The way I say this
The way I sail
Filled with happiness my heart
I hate the way it bluffs
Now I hate myself
Because I hate to love

Dying to live my life
To recover
Possibilities left to discover
But it seems impossible to clear the way
To clear the memories that still stay