i wanna die

(this is a bit serious 1 and i think it represents me rit now )

i wanna die
say to this world b bye
jivan ka har pal kehta hai
pata nahi ye khun kyon behta hai?
kab tak rahoonga ye sab kuch sehta

aaj jine ka man nahi hai karta
sab hi kyon mein kyon nahi marta
apne aap se kab tak rehoonga mein yun darta
aishta se kabhi maut aaye
gheri neend mein muzhe sulaae
marne ka entzar karta hun
shayaad apne aap se zada baki sab se darat hun

sab kehte hain tum ho gaye ho pagal
agar apne time se jagta aur sota hun
pata nahi mein kya khota hun?
meri har baat lagti hai sab ko buri ab
yeh kehtein hain sab

apas mein pyar nahi hai
aur dusron ki baat karte hain
roz muzhe chor kar pata nahi kitne log marte hain?
kabhi lagta ye pyar nahi dikhawa hai
kya zindagi ek behkava hai?
parai par aakar sab kuch kyon hai atakta?
es bari si duniyan mein mein hun bhatakta

apne raste chunna galat to nahi
ab tak lagta tha muzhe yehi

abkya pata mein kahan jaunga?
aur apni ghatiya zindgi mein kya paunga
jine ki eccha to nahi hai par jina parta hai
marne ke bad sharir sabka akarta hai
tab to apne hisab se sounga
aaj akela rota hun
kal sab ko rulaunga

kya iit hi hai ultimate aim?
pata nahi kaun khelraha hai ye game
sab kehte hain janvar hn mein jungle ka
ya vasi hun mangal ka

mein akela baith kar raha tha ro
aur party karne gaye the sab wo
iit nahi karne ka sbkuch hai asar
abhi nikal lo bachi hui kasar

thore din bad to mar jaunga
shayad jalunga ya sar jaunga

actually i wanna die
abd say to this fkin world b bye