captivated soul

Can I borrow your skeleton ?

lost mine

I am a soul captivated by time left behind

I always hate the way I'm

but cannot do any thing about it

since I'm a soul

I don't have heart, hands or mind

created for the reason undetermined

my fellows hate me

I'm just a soul left behind

years have passed

phases of love, pain, lonely nights and rains

some think something is DRASTICALLY wrong

I used to think its life and all is fine

but still I don't have a friend or enemy behind

is my existence an illusion ?

or to die one day I struggle and survive

here caged by the society, pressure and mind

they took my skeleton

and my SOUL cannot move

because earth sucks, Gravity behind

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presently staying in a yahoo server

help me redefine

captivatedsoul@ymail.com

ill wait till you come

i hate to talk but anyways

I'm ONLINE

(now this last stanza was nonsense but it truly represents how fast things change)

me against myself

drowning in my antireality
filled with brutality
anger and pain
i try to fight with myself
not allowed by the brain
the force exerted by the storm
forces me to transform
sucking out reality
no one to help
on one to cry
this storm is so dry

the guilt inside covering me now
but i dnt allow
to fight till death
whatever it takes blood or breath
but i will surely come out with myself or without
to fight your own with concious blown
to postpone your life till outof the danger zone
to win with your cards shown
to me this way is not known

but to this world ill show
with theconfidence not so low
that i will live
its me who, ill forgive

confused

Pain is being injected

but I remain infected

thinking of you again

its infection of your memory that remain

contagious it maybe

its not I who is infected but we

no treatment till now in sight

that’s why this one more sleepless night



so many days I have stayed alone

without anyone on my own I have grown

drinking pain from the time unknown



now shud I try death?

Ending all in one last breath

confused I am

but this is all what you can do in a jam

my vein tired of pain soar

but pain is inside till the core

so last option remain is to drain

free myself from the painful chain