i got to stay awake

right kind of weather
garnished with absence of moon
peace flowing in air and nothing except the stars to stare
defying definition of beauty
time appears to have stopped

I wish it to be like this always
tired body forces me to get lost
in the concentrated world of memories not so good nor too bad
still they make me sad
and to enjoy this stillness I need to stay awake
to stay concentrated on nothing inside me

soon the sun will arrive
dragging me out of this virtual world
to show me the hate around me
when pinching bright light
keeps everything else out of focus

still love you
constantly denying this fact
but place for you
undisturbed still intact
many times I tried to fill the gap
resulting in nonsense
Forcing me to sleep and feel sad