me against myself

drowning in my antireality
filled with brutality
anger and pain
i try to fight with myself
not allowed by the brain
the force exerted by the storm
forces me to transform
sucking out reality
no one to help
on one to cry
this storm is so dry

the guilt inside covering me now
but i dnt allow
to fight till death
whatever it takes blood or breath
but i will surely come out with myself or without
to fight your own with concious blown
to postpone your life till outof the danger zone
to win with your cards shown
to me this way is not known

but to this world ill show
with theconfidence not so low
that i will live
its me who, ill forgive

confused

Pain is being injected

but I remain infected

thinking of you again

its infection of your memory that remain

contagious it maybe

its not I who is infected but we

no treatment till now in sight

that’s why this one more sleepless night



so many days I have stayed alone

without anyone on my own I have grown

drinking pain from the time unknown



now shud I try death?

Ending all in one last breath

confused I am

but this is all what you can do in a jam

my vein tired of pain soar

but pain is inside till the core

so last option remain is to drain

free myself from the painful chain

killing him was not so fine

Killing him was not so fine
He was a good frnd of mine
I could not see him suffer
And its not that is makes me tougher
I don’t like to share pain
And that’s how I explain

Many more I have to kill
Therefore living still
Many more still alive
Living a miserable life
One more reason on which killing is based
Is the blood’s taste
Don’t worry soon he will be replaced
Talking about anything else is a waste

They call me a killer
But I cannot see the pain
After I cut his hand to taste the refreshing bloody rain
Therefore I killed him
I also hate the lights here, so dim
I had to cut seven times to get the right vein
That’s needed to minimize the pain

Now pain flooding from my own life
It’s hard to survive
Can you now feel the pain in your head?
By the time I will die you too will be dead
Your life too is in pain
Since you are my frnd I am killing you without any gain